Insecurity and happiness
With insecurity comes the inevitable inability to trust your gut, to trust your intuition. With insecurity comes ignoring your own feelings, positive or negative and inability to go with your heart.
At least that is how insecurity manifested in me. When you ask for advice from everyone else and the strangers on the internet for advise, trying to find the best decision what I'm doing is ignoring my reality. Ignoring my feelings.
We human aren't rational beings. We don't do everything objectively. To even try to believe there is some objective way to lead a life is a delusion to escape the anxiety of decision.
The truth is, it's up to us alone how I want to lead my life. No one else can answer it for me, for the big decisions in life. Yes sure, I can listen to advice, but the person I should give the reins is my own intuition and emotions. I have heavily ignored my feelings in the past, because it was too painful to confront, and because I didn't know how to handle strong emotions without completely losing myself.
But, to get in touch with my emotions, and diving deep into them, understanding their roots, understanding how others around me are influencing me have given me much more happiness than the times I used to ignore and suppress my feelings and not honor them by listening to them.
When it's all said and done, we want to be happy. And exploring our emotions is crucial for that instead of going roundabout way to derive happiness from work, relationship in a frenzied manner only because that’s what everyone else is doing.
I believe that if there are some unconscious beliefs from the past which are injuring our heart everyday, we won't be able to to sustain happiness. It's like filling a jar with a hole in the bottom of it. With continuous self exploration into our emotions, we will be able to make better, informed choices about how to live our lives in an authentic way.